I was not going to decorate for Christmas this year. I just could not bring myself to hang each bulb on the Christmas tree and relive the associated memories that go with them. But wait, I promised myself as a kid to always have a Christmas tree after going to my grandma’s house which had none. “I’m too old,” she said. “Too tired to put one up.” The furnace continues to run.
I promised my cousins I’d have them over for some tea and cookies. And then a couple of dear friends of mine wanted to come by and see my new place. It just made sense to decorate for the season. I saw a photograph of the most beautifully decorated Christmas tree on Facebook and I got inspired. My wall clock, grandfather clock, continues to quietly tick.
I did not have to put all of my memory laden ornaments on my tree. I did not need to use the same lights. I could have a simply decorated tree like the one I saw in the photograph. I could not find the purple lights, that would have to wait until next year giving me time to find some, but I did find some white lights and a strand of blue lights which when lite are more of a teal color. A few silver artificial poinsettias, my teal garland, and four strategically placed ornaments (my mom’s spaceship alien, my walnut I made in 1st grade, my representative Smokey cat playing with yarn, and one traditional bulb) all in same color scheme. It is simple, eloquent, and beautiful. My dog softly snores.
I think of my friends, those who are current in my life. I think of my condo and how it is starting to feel like home after being in it for over a year. I think of how I am so different than I was five years ago. I am happy. The snow outside is softly, quietly falling.